Mystic Monday

Finding Freedom: For Yourself, By Yourself

This week I struggled a lot with the idea of freedom. Financial freedom, sexual freedom, mind freedom. And most of all, I think that there is no way out of this struggle. I guess there is no *easy* way out.

So, finally I picked up my Mystic Monday deck for this question. I eased in with Mystic Monday for blunt honesty, and that’s how we vibe. This spread was guided by @groundedbythemoon on Instagram.

So at first I picked up The Devil. The card for attachment issues (I mean, I have it in the form of commitment, ugh). I feel like the Devil rarely appeared for me lately, and I am thankful that I have managed a lot in staying away from things that hurt me. Gotta control the way I respond to things that are sent to destroy me.

I am looking into finding cooperation with people (Five of Wands). Through working together, then we will get to our means. There is no definite relationship and reason to get together with people regardless of their beliefs, but surely, we will find our way.

As we work in the area where we need to deal with people, we forgot to take a break (Four of Swords). The challenge, especially living in the age of smartphones and notifications, is where I hardly find the reason to be free from human and digital interaction. Getting detached is hard, and I am focusing to put away my phone and my computer when I don’t need them.

What does a Sagittarius love the most? Balance with a set of purpose (Temperance). I know exactly freedom and balance come hand in hand. All you got to do is to be patient, and find the right tune to things. And freedom will arrive at your door.

But what is in the way? Being judged, being attached, being co-dependent. A lot of us struggled to be free because of fear of being alone and not having anyone to be on the other side of the door. But what do we *really need* is ourselves (Queen of Swords).

No one is going to save you, you need to do it for yourself.

Anyone who would like to do the spread can check out the question below!

Everyday Tarot Message from The Universe Work Your Light

2019 Tarot Unwrapped: Burning Bridges and Buildings

I’m finally ready to settle down this year and looking forward to a new decade. This year have seen the most growth and bounces for me, and for this I thank the Universe for always getting my back. This journey has been a sobering one.

I used my eldest deck, a gift from Shahir. This is Everyday Tarot by Biddy and it always resonates with what I feel. We’ve been through a lot of journey together, and it’s only fair to do this year unwrapped together.

I’ve been moving independently this year (Queen of Swords). I landed into *so-called dream* job in a feminist organisation which then despised my work and activism. I guess there is still unsettled feelings for this conflict that I’m having, because I’ve lost a lot in this dispute. I worked my freelance life, and paved it until I found a new full-time job, which then again, broke me into pieces (The Tower).

I believe there is more to this, as I found new ways, friends, and passion. Tarot is one of them. I went into spiritual journey, reconnected with my ancestors and understand that this is just the beginning (Two of Wands). In order to gain something, I’ve a lot of things, ways, friends, and passion too (Five of Cups).

I’ve worked with the Message from Universe deck and Work Your Light Deck for this oracle spread. Both again remind me to find the right path and re-aligning what is needed. I believe there is more to explore next year, and I am ready to go through that portal with high velocity and intensity.

Full Moon Spread Tarot of Cloisters Work Your Light

Full Moon in Gemini: Collectives vs. Individuals vs. Organisations

This Full Moon in Gemini, my coven sister, Shahir and I spend some good time at my place to do our spreads and shares insights. We haven’t met each other for quite sometimes, and it’s all catch up and roast time. Of course, the fire signs in us wouldn’t rest.

We had a good dinner. We did our year wrap spread, and the year ahead spread. As for me, I’m feeling like I might just go with the flow next year. There’s a lot to unpack for the year ahead spread, but I’m going to talk about this particular Full Moon reading first.

For this spread, I used Tarot of Cloisters with Work Your Light Oracle.

The Tarot of the Cloisters is a round deck with a stained glass effect inspired by thirteenth century rose cathedral windows. The medieval figures and settings echo the traditional tarot images on the Rider-Waite deck.

I’m particularly chose this deck for my spread because of the duality of the nature, for Gemini and Sagittarius. Mirror is such a good reflection of how a good actor people with major placements of those mentioned. In the activist space, people hold their tongues and actions so that we won’t hurt each other, but are we letting problematic statements pass by, as we do that?

I am struggling to understand how the spirit of collaboration and mutual aid became more extinct in our society these days. As if our good deeds are made for front pages of newspapers. And for those, activists working in the background are becoming more and more burnout for doing unpaid labor and carrying secondhand trauma with us. The world could be a better place if we all look into the bright side of each other (Six of Vessels).

Two weeks ago, I went to a workshop where my teacher told me how activists are comfortable enough in our bubble, that we forget other people does not speak our language. I see the world is changing, but it’s my side of the world (Nine of Vessels). The beauty of the world your chose, is not a path where you live alone, and for that I’m breaking my comfort zone to understand where can I work more, especially in the next year.

I see the Universe is not kidding with me when my Sagittarius card opens on Sagittarius season. Temperance is all about moderation and balance. Patience is key. As an activist, the world is full of threat and our sense of security is constantly compromised. This year has been extremely overwhelming for me as I faced a lot of consequences for fighting in what I believe in. And never will I regret the path that I chose. It’s here to stay.

What need to be celebrated? Small collectives (Ace of Wands) are constantly struggling to fund themselves and continue doing our work. Most of collectives are donations based and rent their alternative spaces. From the struggle with landlords and donations to live day by day, collectives faced threat to stay relevant, especially when there is giant organization took away funds from us.

Collectivism need to be followed up with emotional maturity (King of Vessels). This year alone I’ve learned about friction in organizations and how to handle them maturely. And I want to believe that this area can be worked more rather than being petty. Disagreements are common in collectives, what we could do is to find consensus and where best to serve everyone’s benefit.

Finally, the idea of consensus is where everyone is happy (Two of Vessels). Most of our upbringing is about majority rules, where the minority’s voices are completely ignored. In consensus practices of collectivism, it’s about understanding what serves the best function for the collectives and without harming each other. Though the approach is more pacifist, but the idea should exist to serve those who needed it.

Overall, Work Your Light Oracle brings us back to the call when collectives are destructed when your interest is not served. I believe that in collectives, fights are something common and this is due to each other’s experience and upbringing. Therefore, re-align yourself through communication and boundaries that serves purpose, not aesthetically pleasing only.

Coming up with the year wrapped spread and the year ahead spread soon. Till then.

Mystic Monday

Mystic Monday: Anarchy of Self-Care

On a sunny Monday afternoon, this deck arrived at my door. So it was called Mystic Monday.

A routine for a tarot reader, to form bonds and emotional connection for their respective tarot deck. So we did heart-to-heart session and understand what can we work together from now on.

The thing about structure (Four of Wands) is I do not want to restrict myself in one definition. I am erin-of-all-trades. And when a foundation is stable and nothing to be cared for, I’m second guessing myself, are we able to move beyond particular definition?

As an anarchist in a state where anarchism is not addressed correctly (not that it has ever addressed correctly anywhere), I see individualism (The Hermit) as the way I manifest the ability to work with others. And as my name, Malikhain (The Empress) gracefully embraces me and reassures me that  everything is fine.

But when will everything be fine, as the world crumbles and we continue to fight each other?

Illusion (Seven of Swords) and Indulgence (Seven of Cups) are among unhealthy needs that I have, as a person living in the bark of capitalism. As the world demands us to indulge in activism and action that requires constant pressure on our sanity, and to be happy once in a blue moon, it’s possible for us not to be cautious about what may happen in the future. Do not get caught off guard.

Maintaining self-care in the capitalist world as an anarchist can be tough, and I invite people to share what best practices can be done to be spend little to zero currency on being happy.