Mystic Monday

Tarot Makeover Day 3: Ask Powerful Questions

I think this really give me the chills so far. I don’t quite understand how we frame questions in our head sometimes, and I took questions very lightly. I don’t think thoroughly, safe to say I am very simple minded. But thinking *powerful questions* make me raise my eyebrows.

So I brainstormed five powerful questions for myself:

  • How do I pursue my creativity in my limited time?
  • What type of rest that I should acquire?
  • Where do my inspiration come from?
  • How do I balance between paid work and passion?
  • How do I improve my collaborative effort with others?

I chose the question: How do I balance between paid work and passion?

The card that answers: Knight of Pentacles.


I am genuinely excited when the Pentacles court card appeared whenever it is a question related to abundance because first, it felt like the answer is already “You are at balance.” With Knight of Pentacles, I am assured that this will meet in between, where I am going to be paid to work on my passion. I am grateful for the source of abundance that I already have, but I am seeking for the true love in the abundance. Where I will truly love what I do. And Knight of Pentacles arrived to tell me that it is coming for me.

Incremental progress is satisfactory since you know that this is proof that your strategy is working. There is no stopping the Knight of Pentacles—he knows what he wants and will not stop in getting it! Stay true to your noble vision and you will eventually see the results.

What was your experience and what do you discover?
What was amazing is that the card jumped out immediately and I smiled when it opens up. I feel like the person in the card, a masculine figure, is talking to be, to be patient and to deliver his news carefully. This was quite an occurrence, but I’ve never really listen carefully to this specific card. It feels like we couldn’t connect. But this time, it felt amazing.

Moving on to Day 4!

Mystic Monday New Moon Spread

New Moon in Capricorn: Dreaming of My Dreams

I took a deep breath as we enter the New Moon in eclipse, and I’ve been in a lot of pain lately. I’m not sure what the pain is all about, and how my physical ability is constantly being affected by it. All I remember is sleeping a lot and agreeing to a lot of rest and care I did for myself. But I took in a lot of energy from people around me, from the reading I’ve been offering to people, and their spirit sort of… latch into me? Whatever it is, I’m learning to let go.

I picked up my deck for New Moon in Capricorn, to do spread by Biddy Tarot.

What can I do to live in integrity?

Hello there, Eight of Swords! I think I foresee this coming to us a long way.

“Needing permission from some- one else other than yourself is giving away your power. Take back what is yours! The only permission you need is from yourself. “

Limitation is, like, come on. I’m not here for this. I was going through a fiery Sagittarius season, and Capricorn will not let me breathe. I am ready to pick up a lot from this season, and I’m not worried about limitation. I’m wary of self-expression and acquiring recognition, because that’s what Capricorns are living for.


How can I incorporate healthy solitude into my routines?

Pentacles are the Earth signs card, and I’m excited when it appeared.

Incremental progress is satisfactory since you know that this is proof that your strategy is working. There is no stopping the Knight of Pentacles—he knows what he wants and will not stop in getting it!

I think we all took quiet times and alone times for granted and Earth sign seasons are usually the time of the year when everything is very quiet and magically slow. But they are cunning times. Those who work in silence usually strive the best and their wins? Wild. I’m ready for a wild Capricorn ride!

What blessings will I receive when I approve of myself?

Oh, wow. Wheel of Fortune.

Everything happens for a reason, so have faith that these changes are happening for your highest good. Life is full of cycles, and it’s impossible to have the good times without the bad times.

Just as I am ready for a shift, for a major change, for I don’t know what’s forthcoming in the month, I am ready to go through this change. I’m adapting to it. I am IT.


How is my reputation serving me?

A long-term goal has been reached, and you can now sit back and relax. All of the pieces have come together, and you have finally found your place in the world. Celebrate— this is a huge win!

The World find itself in my deck to tell me that we all have come to a long road in this year. It’s time to sit back and enjoy the end of the year. I’m feeling it. I’m feeling the holiday vibe. But I am also wanting to do a little bit more, this month. Can my fire energy shut down already? I don’t know!


How will my actions benefit from self-control?

The say Nine of Cups is the wish card in the deck, symbolizes dreaming coming true for me. Pretty sure January is a long month to go, and the Capricorn season promises abundance. I am taking this advice for myself.

Your heart’s desires have been attended to, reaching deep emotional satisfaction and fulfillment. Count your blessings and all the good things that life has to offer by living to the fullest.

What is my highest intention for my personal power?

Princess of Pentacles. Dream. More dream to be achieve. I’m dreaming big. Well, there’s no stopping here I guess.

By re-framing work as play, you allow yourself to approach learning as a new adventure. Move forward with reason and practicality, and set your sights forward to expand. Realize your potential by allowing yourself to grow.

I am feeling the vibe of Capricorn season is being passive aggressive to me; is to rest or to work? I’m looking inwards for cosmic shift spread, of which I will share soon (as my thoughts drown in it).

Mystic Monday

Finding Freedom: For Yourself, By Yourself

This week I struggled a lot with the idea of freedom. Financial freedom, sexual freedom, mind freedom. And most of all, I think that there is no way out of this struggle. I guess there is no *easy* way out.

So, finally I picked up my Mystic Monday deck for this question. I eased in with Mystic Monday for blunt honesty, and that’s how we vibe. This spread was guided by @groundedbythemoon on Instagram.

So at first I picked up The Devil. The card for attachment issues (I mean, I have it in the form of commitment, ugh). I feel like the Devil rarely appeared for me lately, and I am thankful that I have managed a lot in staying away from things that hurt me. Gotta control the way I respond to things that are sent to destroy me.

I am looking into finding cooperation with people (Five of Wands). Through working together, then we will get to our means. There is no definite relationship and reason to get together with people regardless of their beliefs, but surely, we will find our way.

As we work in the area where we need to deal with people, we forgot to take a break (Four of Swords). The challenge, especially living in the age of smartphones and notifications, is where I hardly find the reason to be free from human and digital interaction. Getting detached is hard, and I am focusing to put away my phone and my computer when I don’t need them.

What does a Sagittarius love the most? Balance with a set of purpose (Temperance). I know exactly freedom and balance come hand in hand. All you got to do is to be patient, and find the right tune to things. And freedom will arrive at your door.

But what is in the way? Being judged, being attached, being co-dependent. A lot of us struggled to be free because of fear of being alone and not having anyone to be on the other side of the door. But what do we *really need* is ourselves (Queen of Swords).

No one is going to save you, you need to do it for yourself.

Anyone who would like to do the spread can check out the question below!

Mystic Monday

Mystic Monday: Anarchy of Self-Care

On a sunny Monday afternoon, this deck arrived at my door. So it was called Mystic Monday.

A routine for a tarot reader, to form bonds and emotional connection for their respective tarot deck. So we did heart-to-heart session and understand what can we work together from now on.

The thing about structure (Four of Wands) is I do not want to restrict myself in one definition. I am erin-of-all-trades. And when a foundation is stable and nothing to be cared for, I’m second guessing myself, are we able to move beyond particular definition?

As an anarchist in a state where anarchism is not addressed correctly (not that it has ever addressed correctly anywhere), I see individualism (The Hermit) as the way I manifest the ability to work with others. And as my name, Malikhain (The Empress) gracefully embraces me and reassures me that  everything is fine.

But when will everything be fine, as the world crumbles and we continue to fight each other?

Illusion (Seven of Swords) and Indulgence (Seven of Cups) are among unhealthy needs that I have, as a person living in the bark of capitalism. As the world demands us to indulge in activism and action that requires constant pressure on our sanity, and to be happy once in a blue moon, it’s possible for us not to be cautious about what may happen in the future. Do not get caught off guard.

Maintaining self-care in the capitalist world as an anarchist can be tough, and I invite people to share what best practices can be done to be spend little to zero currency on being happy.